An illusion, something beyond the mystery face.
A creation, something ahead of you.
Unstoppable, something resemblant to a train with no breaks.

Stay away from me, so that I can stay away from pain.

The old man said – “pain is just weakness leaving your body“.
So she tried, she tried so hard to live with it.
But then, how much pain can one little soul handle.
Pain = weakness = failure

Failure leaves you - prevented

Not said that the girl will be stopped, no oh no,
the girl will stand up strong and fight the pain away.
Nothing will or can take this dream away.
Everything has been taken away from this girl, everything but this.

She will never let this one go.

Work, shopping, school, home is my plan for today. I have an errand on Söder, after that I will try getting myself to MQ for some shopping, since I got gift cards there on my birthday, but only if time is available. We have Dramaturgy today in school, we had to read a script until today and I can tell you all that it’s one of the most wierd scripts I have ever read..

I want to cut my wrists, let them bleed while just sitting down
and feel the adrenaline through my body.
But it’s a wast of time, a wast of blood. Better of without.

How can I find the adrenaline – without pain.

Pain is just an emotion, an emotion creating what I am looking for.
So what will I do. A question my mind is claiming.

Break a leg for fuck sake.

Photographer: Jonas Elofsson Make up Artist: Paula V

If I ever would start to explain how I feel you would be amazed.
The agonized soul is not the fear. But to envy.
Opening up I did yesterday. In belief.

Now how come I want to deny my feelings? Why little girl, why?
I shouldn’t. No, a little girl is not to play games.
This game is hard to play and it’s not a game of joy.

One beer, two and three.

Photographer: Jonas Elofsson Make up Artist: Paula V.

A best friend is love on a higher level.
This I have been without for a couple of months.
Now a best friend is moving to town.
Happiness. A feeling of something better.

So why is the little lonely girl so freaking sad,
the lonely girl with a nice smile.
A life can only be that good, her’s not.

Lonely girl is scared. She’s happy, but lost.
Music leads the way. Shana Levy.
Lonely girl is not strong, she’s weak.
A weak fucking girl, with a nice smile.
So fragile, so lost in emptiness.

Now be strong little girl, a friend is coming.
A best friend who will be there, forever.

That is love.

Photographer: Jonas Elofsson

A drastic change. Give me a hint.
A misunderstanding by the other part.
A look, a short answer. That’s where it all broke.
Sorry, it’s my fault.

Anyways, don’t be a fool.
It’s no longer a game. Wait, it never was.

Photographer: Jonas Elofsson

A lonely girl leaving her house.
Feeling. Lost in the big world.
A sense of a bitter sweet symphony.

A bitter sweet symphony.

Bitter Sweet Symphony is just what it is. Awesome picture taken by the extraordinary photographer Jonas Elofsson.

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Euphoric. A sense of something better. A change.
Life is great, wanting more of acting.
Wanting more out of life. A change inside.
A freaking loud scream on the outside.

A little clown girl walking down the streets.
In dark alleys, with a smoke in her hand.
When life turns gray the girl color the world.
A smash of color under her umbrella.

She is changing. From a little clown girl.
Walking the streets. Going to a nightclub.
A makeup artist and a hairstylist.
A costume assistant dressing that girl.

Euphoric. A sense of something better. A change.
Life is great, wanting more of acting.
Wanting more out of life. A change inside.
A freaking loud scream on the outside.

Now put on a little dress and high heels.
Dance all night, looking good.
Temptation. A girls best friend.
End the night, feeling unlucky.

Now what did Facebook do?

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Lonely girl, a strong will.
A decision.
Daddy once said; You always have to win.

So be the case,
lonely girl have to have.
In case she fails,
wait, she doesn’t. Never have.

A decision.
No candy, no soda.
No cigarettes. No. No no.

Never nothing.
She loves it. Discipline.
Lonely girl grow strong.

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It’s my imaginary friend playing a game.
Lost in eternity.  Just like Alice.
A wonderland not knowing where to go.

Long day. Impressions.
Happiness. Joy. Peace.
A forgotten mistake. A fun playhouse.

Oh Alice it was. Following the endless road.
Follow your heart and you will find.
Someone said: You will never be happy with that Thing.

The girl said in belief;
Oh I will, I will show you.
The girl was lost, but saw the truth.

The girl would never be happy.
At least not with That.

Waking up, holding it.
Running.
Taking medicine.

It seems not to work.
Little girl drinking tea with honey.
Seems not to work.

Getting dress.
Don’t want to wake up.
Listening to music.
Don’t want to wake up.

Fool I am.